WELCOME TO MY LIFE
What's up guys, so I'm sorry for not continue my khaira story, because I'm busy, really busy.
this is my holiday, and I'm happy for it. just for information I'm on Medan, that's my hometown.
I'm feeling free from the first day.
I came here because I want celebrate my eid al-fitr. I've many family here.
my grandma is here, aunty, uncle, nephew and brother-sister.
So guys, Medan is a town on east sumatera, Indonesia. this town use Melayu language, has loud voice, and hot weather. it has many places to visit, such as Danau toba (Lake), Istana Maimun (castle, but that is a history) , Mesjid Raya Medan (mosque), and etc. (I like to use that word "etc" because I don't have/know else again)
and in 5 days again, I will share my picture on this town.
See you guys.
Selasa, 21 Agustus 2012
Kamis, 09 Agustus 2012
Khaira Story (english text) "Impingement?"
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
IMPINGEMENT(?)
So here we go, my name is khaira, I life in a town that called Karawang.
who don't know me? no one. because I'm the leader of an organization that make my school in the top of the school list in my town. okay, maybe that's like a "thinker"
I'm famous, I'm beauty, I'll get my scholarship in the best university in this country, after finish my high school.
I'm an independent woman, I can do anything by myself, and I proud of it.
but so hard for get a guy with all my superiority.
*At My School*
"khaira" my friend call me from the other end.
"yes" I answer with all my tenderness
"the headmaster call you and he waiting you in his office" said my friend.
"okay, thanks"
*Headmaster Office*
"excuse me, sir"
"yes, khaira, come here" ask my headmaster
"what's going on, sir?" I'm curious.
"I need your help, we have new student and take him around this school, and make sure everything is alright, because he is an Important student"
"who is he?" I'm really Kepo guys (kepo is something like curious in my country or my association)
"he is the son of our committee, and he also son of our big donors, he is already comeback from London, his name "jake" so be careful" command headmaster
"where is he, now?"
"waiting you in waiting room, go there"
"yes sir"
*waiting room*
I opened the door, and WOW I saw the man that really handsome, with his curly hair, brown skin, black eyes, so tall, and good body, he like my "dream man" and he used the headphone, so cool.
"excuse me, sir, are you mr. jake?"
"yes I am, are you khaira? who will take me around at this school?"
"yes I am, yes I do, sir"
"don't call me sir, just call me jake, can you?"
"yes I can sir, I'm sorry, I mean Jake" and I take him around school, as long as take him around, I ask to myself, why he is comeback from London? If I were him, maybe I want not to comeback to Indonesia, London more spectacular, more best than Indonesia, fool boy, maybe he has own reason.
"up here, jake. this is the end of our environment school"
"okay, I'm satisfied, thanks khaira" after said thanks, he's gone, and I'm go back to my home.
as usual I through my life so enjoy, with all the meeting with all school in Karawang and at that meeting we talk about our cooperate to make art event among all school in Karawang, and Like usual my school be a Leader.
do you want to know something about my secret? yes, you do. on every event or activity that I do I always have someone who make me so excited, he is Xander, if you know him, you will said that he is look so "cool" but sometimes he look so "friendly". Unique person, rights? and I like him from one years ago, so this my second years to loving him.
"what's your plan to make this event more interesting" Xander asked.
"it's easy, we need to advertise this event in every social network, first, and then I'll tell you later, I'm hungry now, so take me to the Resto Kita" (resto kita is the restaurant with outdoor view in the second floor)
"okay my independent woman" Xander said that with spoiled face
*In the Resto Kita*
"Khaira, this is our second years, rights? I'm glad to know you as my bestie"
I think I need to tell him that I really like him "Xander"
"yes?"
"you know I really *his phone ringing*"
"yes, what? oh okay, I'll go there, see you" he ended the calling
"who is that"
"Khaira, I'm so sorry, I really need to go, maybe you can go home, alone"
"who is that" I turn loud my voice
"oh yes, I've never tell you, that is my girlfriend, I just make a relationship with her, since one week ago, sorry, I'm late to tell you, friend, I'm going now, bye" He is disappear from my sight, and that night be a lonely night, ever. suddenly, my world collapse, and it's totally dark, feel like I don't have a purpose of life, why her? why not me? I always do something best for him, I'm never stop to pray for him, I'm never stop thinking about him, I denied every boy who try to approaching me, I'm never make him shame on me, I try to make him proud, I include him on my every event just for make him with me, and he always like that, but what the fact? he choose another girl and that's not me. is it fair? not at all!
*2 weeks later in school*
I need to continue my life, maybe god have another plan for me, maybe he is with her, right now but in the end, he only with me as my husband.
^someone touch my shoulder^ ^I turn back^ "yes, what's up?" I greet
"do you busy this night" Jake said
"not really, why?"
"I want to ask you to accompany me for round this town, you know I haven't usual with this town, again, so want you?"
"of course, it's sounds great, what time?"
"7pm"
"okay, I'll send you my address at your Blackberry"
"how if you come to my house? I don't know very well this place."
"okay, give me your address in my Blackberry" I asked him.
"thank you so much, my savior" he said.
*it was 7pm and I'm already in front of his house*
^knock..knock^
^he is out, and look great with the white shirt and short jeans, and he hanging his black glasses on his shirt, that make him look more great, and I wear my blue short dress, and I bundle my hair so high, and somehow we look so match^
"you look beauty" he praised how I look
"you too"
"so we go with my car, right? and you show me the route and choose place that's really cool that I'm never visit"
"okay" so we go out with his car, that's BMW i3, and that's car really expensive, I guess.
so, where we go? that's a big question, the place that he never visit, I don't know guys, what is in London? I've never go there, okay, let me think, oh ya, I know.
^arrived^
"what is it?"
"this is Pasar Malam (Pasar Malam is night market that full of rides, games, and everything that will make you feeling enjoy)"
"oh girl, this is so crowded, I don't like this" he is complain
"just follow me, and we will happy together, come on, rich boy"
first, I take him into roller coaster, and he screamed out, and then I took him into kora-kora (kora is the big boat that hang up and will swing to the right to the left with the big power) and he began to like "PASAR MALAM" and for the last I took him into Bianglala (Bianglala is the windmills rides, just look at the google, and you found what I mean)
in Bianglala he look so relax, and suddenly, our eyes looked at each other, and my heart beating so fast, and that night feeling so cool, I'm cold, and he took off his jacket and put it on me, and he is so closer, and what happened? is he try to kiss me? oh god, yes he kiss me, now. why, I'm not try to avoid it? why my heart beating so fast? why I kiss him back? is it love? or just impingement from my love to Xander? Oh god, tell me? but it's feeling so right.
IMPINGEMENT(?)
So here we go, my name is khaira, I life in a town that called Karawang.
who don't know me? no one. because I'm the leader of an organization that make my school in the top of the school list in my town. okay, maybe that's like a "thinker"
I'm famous, I'm beauty, I'll get my scholarship in the best university in this country, after finish my high school.
I'm an independent woman, I can do anything by myself, and I proud of it.
but so hard for get a guy with all my superiority.
*At My School*
"khaira" my friend call me from the other end.
"yes" I answer with all my tenderness
"the headmaster call you and he waiting you in his office" said my friend.
"okay, thanks"
*Headmaster Office*
"excuse me, sir"
"yes, khaira, come here" ask my headmaster
"what's going on, sir?" I'm curious.
"I need your help, we have new student and take him around this school, and make sure everything is alright, because he is an Important student"
"who is he?" I'm really Kepo guys (kepo is something like curious in my country or my association)
"he is the son of our committee, and he also son of our big donors, he is already comeback from London, his name "jake" so be careful" command headmaster
"where is he, now?"
"waiting you in waiting room, go there"
"yes sir"
*waiting room*
I opened the door, and WOW I saw the man that really handsome, with his curly hair, brown skin, black eyes, so tall, and good body, he like my "dream man" and he used the headphone, so cool.
"excuse me, sir, are you mr. jake?"
"yes I am, are you khaira? who will take me around at this school?"
"yes I am, yes I do, sir"
"don't call me sir, just call me jake, can you?"
"yes I can sir, I'm sorry, I mean Jake" and I take him around school, as long as take him around, I ask to myself, why he is comeback from London? If I were him, maybe I want not to comeback to Indonesia, London more spectacular, more best than Indonesia, fool boy, maybe he has own reason.
"up here, jake. this is the end of our environment school"
"okay, I'm satisfied, thanks khaira" after said thanks, he's gone, and I'm go back to my home.
as usual I through my life so enjoy, with all the meeting with all school in Karawang and at that meeting we talk about our cooperate to make art event among all school in Karawang, and Like usual my school be a Leader.
do you want to know something about my secret? yes, you do. on every event or activity that I do I always have someone who make me so excited, he is Xander, if you know him, you will said that he is look so "cool" but sometimes he look so "friendly". Unique person, rights? and I like him from one years ago, so this my second years to loving him.
"what's your plan to make this event more interesting" Xander asked.
"it's easy, we need to advertise this event in every social network, first, and then I'll tell you later, I'm hungry now, so take me to the Resto Kita" (resto kita is the restaurant with outdoor view in the second floor)
"okay my independent woman" Xander said that with spoiled face
*In the Resto Kita*
"Khaira, this is our second years, rights? I'm glad to know you as my bestie"
I think I need to tell him that I really like him "Xander"
"yes?"
"you know I really *his phone ringing*"
"yes, what? oh okay, I'll go there, see you" he ended the calling
"who is that"
"Khaira, I'm so sorry, I really need to go, maybe you can go home, alone"
"who is that" I turn loud my voice
"oh yes, I've never tell you, that is my girlfriend, I just make a relationship with her, since one week ago, sorry, I'm late to tell you, friend, I'm going now, bye" He is disappear from my sight, and that night be a lonely night, ever. suddenly, my world collapse, and it's totally dark, feel like I don't have a purpose of life, why her? why not me? I always do something best for him, I'm never stop to pray for him, I'm never stop thinking about him, I denied every boy who try to approaching me, I'm never make him shame on me, I try to make him proud, I include him on my every event just for make him with me, and he always like that, but what the fact? he choose another girl and that's not me. is it fair? not at all!
*2 weeks later in school*
I need to continue my life, maybe god have another plan for me, maybe he is with her, right now but in the end, he only with me as my husband.
^someone touch my shoulder^ ^I turn back^ "yes, what's up?" I greet
"do you busy this night" Jake said
"not really, why?"
"I want to ask you to accompany me for round this town, you know I haven't usual with this town, again, so want you?"
"of course, it's sounds great, what time?"
"7pm"
"okay, I'll send you my address at your Blackberry"
"how if you come to my house? I don't know very well this place."
"okay, give me your address in my Blackberry" I asked him.
"thank you so much, my savior" he said.
*it was 7pm and I'm already in front of his house*
^knock..knock^
^he is out, and look great with the white shirt and short jeans, and he hanging his black glasses on his shirt, that make him look more great, and I wear my blue short dress, and I bundle my hair so high, and somehow we look so match^
"you look beauty" he praised how I look
"you too"
"so we go with my car, right? and you show me the route and choose place that's really cool that I'm never visit"
"okay" so we go out with his car, that's BMW i3, and that's car really expensive, I guess.
so, where we go? that's a big question, the place that he never visit, I don't know guys, what is in London? I've never go there, okay, let me think, oh ya, I know.
^arrived^
"what is it?"
"this is Pasar Malam (Pasar Malam is night market that full of rides, games, and everything that will make you feeling enjoy)"
"oh girl, this is so crowded, I don't like this" he is complain
"just follow me, and we will happy together, come on, rich boy"
first, I take him into roller coaster, and he screamed out, and then I took him into kora-kora (kora is the big boat that hang up and will swing to the right to the left with the big power) and he began to like "PASAR MALAM" and for the last I took him into Bianglala (Bianglala is the windmills rides, just look at the google, and you found what I mean)
in Bianglala he look so relax, and suddenly, our eyes looked at each other, and my heart beating so fast, and that night feeling so cool, I'm cold, and he took off his jacket and put it on me, and he is so closer, and what happened? is he try to kiss me? oh god, yes he kiss me, now. why, I'm not try to avoid it? why my heart beating so fast? why I kiss him back? is it love? or just impingement from my love to Xander? Oh god, tell me? but it's feeling so right.
-To Be Continue-
Rabu, 01 Agustus 2012
Alexa Story "God always knows what is best for you and when it happens"
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
Chapter 2
"Pagi kesekolah"
Sial... bisa-bisa gue kesiangan nih, aduh macet banget, Karawang emang gak seindah dulu.
dulu serasa tinggal di desa semi kota yang asri, penuh sawah, dan udaranya tidak terlalu buruk, tapi sekarang, dimana-mana bangunan, sawah hampir lenyap, entar kalau beras makin mahal, baru nyesel. okay, sudahlah, kenapa bicara gue jadi seperti "aktivis lingkungan"?
okay bentar lagi gue nyampe, dan ya... sial, gue telat. gue bener-bener telat ya sudahlah, gue terpaksa harus turun dari mobil dan berdiri di depan gerbang.
tik...tok..tik...tok.... gue bosen disini...
tik...tok...tik...tok... brem...brem....
"hei, telat juga?"
oh tuhan, ada RIAN, ini "AMAZING"
"iya, gue telat" jawab gue grogi.
"ayoo ikut gue" rian tiba-tiba narik gue dan kita kabur dari depan gerbang.
"mau kemana?" tanya gue gelisah-gelisah seneng.
"udah naik aja, bawel banget sih"
"harus ya? apa harus banget?"
"spoiled lady, come on"
dan gue pun naik ke motor rian, ya motor ini cukup gede, ninja gue rasa, dan tuhan, dia bawanya kenceng banget, gue deg-degan tapi gue seneng.
"astagfirulah" ucap gue karena kaget ada polisi tidur.
"pegangan" dan secara otomatis gue meluk dia dan dia megang tangan gue, aaaahhh ini indah banget, tolong dong diabadiin, oh malaikat-malaikat take a picture of us, dong.
akhirnya gue sampai di tempat ini, dan dia bawa gue ke restoran telaga, ya restoran yang cukup menarik di karawang, dengan view danau buatan (gue rasa), menunya rata-rata khas sunda. dan gue memasuki restoran itu bersama dia, dan cukup sepi jam 9 pagi.
"kita duduk disini aja ya, spoiled lady" dia nunjuk jembatan yang berawal dari dataran ke tepi danau.
"okay"
"eh bentar gue pesenin lo minum, mau apa?cappuccino super manis dengan es penuh? ya kan?"
gue cuma bisa ngangguk gak nyangka dia tahu.
setelah pesen makanan, kita pun duduk di tempat yang tadi dia tunjuk, dan dia muter lagu instrumental yang begitu pas sama suasana tenang ini.
"kenapa lo ngajak gue kesini dan kenapa harus gue? emang gak bisa apa pergi sendiri, atau cari orang lain?" tanya gue penuh rasa penasaran
dan dia tidak menjawab pertanyaan gue, dia malah diam dan menikmati suasana danau sampai waiter pun dateng dan nganterin minum kita, gue pun nikmatin cappuccino gue.
"kenapa lo gak bisa setenang danau ini?, kenapa lo harus grasak-grusuk, harus sembrono, harus ceroboh, harus begitu menyebalkan dan memalukan" tanya rian dengan tenang.
"maksud lo? jadi lo ngajak gue kesini cuma buat ngehina gue, gitu? oh my god, thank you so much. " jawab gue kesel.
"my spoiled lady, you are totally funny, hahaha"
gue pun menghabiskan waktu sekitar 1 jam direstoran itu habis itu dia ngajak gue ke Ramayana, kita main timezone, dan pas sore hari dia ngajak gue ke danau resinda buat liat sunset, dan pada saat itu yang gue tahu dia disebelah gue dan gue meletakkan kepala gue ke bahu dia.
"jangan tinggalin gue ya" pinta gue ke rian
"gak akan pernah" dan hari itu menjadi hari terindah yang pernah ada.
"beberapa hari kemudian"
hari-hari gue sama rian, bisa dibilang perfect dan dia juga gak terlalu cuek lagi sama gue dan hari ini gue berharap bisa bareng dia lagi, dan gue bakal ke danau lagi pegangan lagi dan
"woi, xa, si rian bareng cewek loh di pinggir lapangan basket" cerita mona.
"kayaknya mesra deh" goda litha
"Ya terus gue harus bilang triple WOW gitu?
"wow...wow...wow..." teriak mona. mereka pun pergi dan jujur gue penasaran dan gue berlari ke lapangan dan gue rasa ini akan jadi hari terburuk, dia sama seorang cewek dan itu Vinaya, dia Vinaya, cewek tercantik disekolah gue, kok dia berduaan sama pangeran gue sih? emang gak ada apa cowok lain? ini gak bisa dibiarin, gue harus kesana, tapi...tapi kok mereka kesini sih? eh mau ngapain?
"hahaha, ini cewek yang kamu maksud?" tawa vinaya seakan nyindir gue.
"maksudnya apa?" mereka gak ngejawab pertanyaan gue dan malah pergi ninggalin gue, dan kenapa rian natap gue sinis? sudahlah, mungkin dia emang lagi sensi.
gue ngabisin sisa-sisa hari ini dengan tingkat galau bak dewa yang lagi jatuh cinta lalu ternyata gebetannya jadian sama orang lain dan sialnya jadian sama sahabatnya eh dewa dapet kabar bahwa sebenernya sahabatnya itu udah lama ngerencanain hal itu buat ngehancurin dewa.
"teet...tooot...treeet..." bel pulangpun bunyi, dan gue memang pengen pulang.
seperti biasa gue nunggu depan parkiran karena supir gue Pak Iman, emang demen jemput disitu, dan lagi-lagu gue ngeliat Rian keluar dari parkiran dan entah mengapa ada sedikit harapan pulang bareng dia, tapi harapan gue sering hancur gara-gara dia, you know? dia pulang bareng vinaya, dan itu menjijikkan.
hubungan gue sama rian juga jadi mulai renggang sejak hadirnya vinaya, mereka kemana-mana berdua, kantin lah, perpustakaan lah, pulang bareng lah dan gue cuma bisa menjalani hari-hari buruk ini, begitu sialnya gue kehilangan semangat hidup gue padahal beberapa minggu yang lalu gue sama dia baru aja membuat surga dunia, dan gue gak ngerti siapa gue dimata dia, apa cuma mainan? yaya... jawaban itu terlihat paling benar, cuma mainan.
"siang hari, pulang sekolah"
"xa, pulang sama kita aja" ajak mona
"gak usah, paling bentar lagi Pak Iman jemput"
"tapi udah mendung" ucap litha
"gak apa-apa, deluan sana, hati-hati ya"
"ya udah deh, deluan. bye." teriak litha dan gue pun masih nunggu pak Iman, dan sekolah mulai sepi, parkiran sudah kosong. "blep..blep" bunyi hape.
Manis sekali, gue harus apa? duit gue habis, pulsa gue habis, ya sudahlah jalan saja.
"gluduk...gluduk...jeder...jeder...jeger...brebek" suara petir mulai terdengar dan gemericik hujan sudah turun, dan gue tetep jalan, gue makin kedinginan, gue gak bawa apa-apa, dan hari mulai sore, bahkan hampir gelap, sunyi sekali kota ini, aneh. gue takut.
"teeeet....teeeet" suara klakson terdengar begitu dekat dibelakang gue.
"naik" pinta rian ke gue, dan gue langsung naik, meluk dia erat karena gue bener-bener kedinginan, dan dia malah bawa gue ke danau disebuah perumahan, padahal gue berharap dianterin pulang.
didanau itu dia ajak gue duduk, dan yang gue tahu selama duduk disana gue meluk dia erat, dia ngasih jaket dia ke gue, dan dia coba buat menghangatkan gue, dan gue cuma bisa bilang
"gue benci hujan" beberapa saat kemudian hujan pun berhenti.
"liat, ada pelangi" dia nunjuk sebuah pelangi diangkasa
"bagus banget"
"you know what? there is always a good thing behind the bad things, spoiled lady"
dan dia pun nganterin gue pulang, sesampainya didepan rumah gue pun berterima kasih dan segera masuk, tapi dia manggil gue.
"alexa"
"ya?"
"I would never turn away from you, spoiled lady"
"Vinaya?" he is not answer, just laugh out load.
"bye, My Spoiled Lady" Dia pun mencium kening gue dan pergi. Tuhan, terimakasih untuk hari, dan orang terbaik hari ini, kau selalu lebih tahu mana yang terbaik untukku dan kapan itu terjadi. :)
Chapter 2
"God always knows what is best for you and when it happens"
"Pagi kesekolah"
Sial... bisa-bisa gue kesiangan nih, aduh macet banget, Karawang emang gak seindah dulu.
dulu serasa tinggal di desa semi kota yang asri, penuh sawah, dan udaranya tidak terlalu buruk, tapi sekarang, dimana-mana bangunan, sawah hampir lenyap, entar kalau beras makin mahal, baru nyesel. okay, sudahlah, kenapa bicara gue jadi seperti "aktivis lingkungan"?
okay bentar lagi gue nyampe, dan ya... sial, gue telat. gue bener-bener telat ya sudahlah, gue terpaksa harus turun dari mobil dan berdiri di depan gerbang.
tik...tok..tik...tok.... gue bosen disini...
tik...tok...tik...tok... brem...brem....
"hei, telat juga?"
oh tuhan, ada RIAN, ini "AMAZING"
"iya, gue telat" jawab gue grogi.
"ayoo ikut gue" rian tiba-tiba narik gue dan kita kabur dari depan gerbang.
"mau kemana?" tanya gue gelisah-gelisah seneng.
"udah naik aja, bawel banget sih"
"harus ya? apa harus banget?"
"spoiled lady, come on"
dan gue pun naik ke motor rian, ya motor ini cukup gede, ninja gue rasa, dan tuhan, dia bawanya kenceng banget, gue deg-degan tapi gue seneng.
"astagfirulah" ucap gue karena kaget ada polisi tidur.
"pegangan" dan secara otomatis gue meluk dia dan dia megang tangan gue, aaaahhh ini indah banget, tolong dong diabadiin, oh malaikat-malaikat take a picture of us, dong.
akhirnya gue sampai di tempat ini, dan dia bawa gue ke restoran telaga, ya restoran yang cukup menarik di karawang, dengan view danau buatan (gue rasa), menunya rata-rata khas sunda. dan gue memasuki restoran itu bersama dia, dan cukup sepi jam 9 pagi.
"kita duduk disini aja ya, spoiled lady" dia nunjuk jembatan yang berawal dari dataran ke tepi danau.
"okay"
"eh bentar gue pesenin lo minum, mau apa?cappuccino super manis dengan es penuh? ya kan?"
gue cuma bisa ngangguk gak nyangka dia tahu.
setelah pesen makanan, kita pun duduk di tempat yang tadi dia tunjuk, dan dia muter lagu instrumental yang begitu pas sama suasana tenang ini.
"kenapa lo ngajak gue kesini dan kenapa harus gue? emang gak bisa apa pergi sendiri, atau cari orang lain?" tanya gue penuh rasa penasaran
dan dia tidak menjawab pertanyaan gue, dia malah diam dan menikmati suasana danau sampai waiter pun dateng dan nganterin minum kita, gue pun nikmatin cappuccino gue.
"kenapa lo gak bisa setenang danau ini?, kenapa lo harus grasak-grusuk, harus sembrono, harus ceroboh, harus begitu menyebalkan dan memalukan" tanya rian dengan tenang.
"maksud lo? jadi lo ngajak gue kesini cuma buat ngehina gue, gitu? oh my god, thank you so much. " jawab gue kesel.
"my spoiled lady, you are totally funny, hahaha"
gue pun menghabiskan waktu sekitar 1 jam direstoran itu habis itu dia ngajak gue ke Ramayana, kita main timezone, dan pas sore hari dia ngajak gue ke danau resinda buat liat sunset, dan pada saat itu yang gue tahu dia disebelah gue dan gue meletakkan kepala gue ke bahu dia.
"jangan tinggalin gue ya" pinta gue ke rian
"gak akan pernah" dan hari itu menjadi hari terindah yang pernah ada.
"beberapa hari kemudian"
hari-hari gue sama rian, bisa dibilang perfect dan dia juga gak terlalu cuek lagi sama gue dan hari ini gue berharap bisa bareng dia lagi, dan gue bakal ke danau lagi pegangan lagi dan
"woi, xa, si rian bareng cewek loh di pinggir lapangan basket" cerita mona.
"kayaknya mesra deh" goda litha
"Ya terus gue harus bilang triple WOW gitu?
"wow...wow...wow..." teriak mona. mereka pun pergi dan jujur gue penasaran dan gue berlari ke lapangan dan gue rasa ini akan jadi hari terburuk, dia sama seorang cewek dan itu Vinaya, dia Vinaya, cewek tercantik disekolah gue, kok dia berduaan sama pangeran gue sih? emang gak ada apa cowok lain? ini gak bisa dibiarin, gue harus kesana, tapi...tapi kok mereka kesini sih? eh mau ngapain?
"hahaha, ini cewek yang kamu maksud?" tawa vinaya seakan nyindir gue.
"maksudnya apa?" mereka gak ngejawab pertanyaan gue dan malah pergi ninggalin gue, dan kenapa rian natap gue sinis? sudahlah, mungkin dia emang lagi sensi.
gue ngabisin sisa-sisa hari ini dengan tingkat galau bak dewa yang lagi jatuh cinta lalu ternyata gebetannya jadian sama orang lain dan sialnya jadian sama sahabatnya eh dewa dapet kabar bahwa sebenernya sahabatnya itu udah lama ngerencanain hal itu buat ngehancurin dewa.
"teet...tooot...treeet..." bel pulangpun bunyi, dan gue memang pengen pulang.
seperti biasa gue nunggu depan parkiran karena supir gue Pak Iman, emang demen jemput disitu, dan lagi-lagu gue ngeliat Rian keluar dari parkiran dan entah mengapa ada sedikit harapan pulang bareng dia, tapi harapan gue sering hancur gara-gara dia, you know? dia pulang bareng vinaya, dan itu menjijikkan.
hubungan gue sama rian juga jadi mulai renggang sejak hadirnya vinaya, mereka kemana-mana berdua, kantin lah, perpustakaan lah, pulang bareng lah dan gue cuma bisa menjalani hari-hari buruk ini, begitu sialnya gue kehilangan semangat hidup gue padahal beberapa minggu yang lalu gue sama dia baru aja membuat surga dunia, dan gue gak ngerti siapa gue dimata dia, apa cuma mainan? yaya... jawaban itu terlihat paling benar, cuma mainan.
"siang hari, pulang sekolah"
"xa, pulang sama kita aja" ajak mona
"gak usah, paling bentar lagi Pak Iman jemput"
"tapi udah mendung" ucap litha
"gak apa-apa, deluan sana, hati-hati ya"
"ya udah deh, deluan. bye." teriak litha dan gue pun masih nunggu pak Iman, dan sekolah mulai sepi, parkiran sudah kosong. "blep..blep" bunyi hape.
"Alexa, Pak Iman gak bisa jemput kamu, nebeng ke temen aja ya, atau naik angkot, soalnya papa mau pinjem Pak Iman dulu, supir yang satu lagi, sakit. hati-hati nak."
Manis sekali, gue harus apa? duit gue habis, pulsa gue habis, ya sudahlah jalan saja.
"gluduk...gluduk...jeder...jeder...jeger...brebek" suara petir mulai terdengar dan gemericik hujan sudah turun, dan gue tetep jalan, gue makin kedinginan, gue gak bawa apa-apa, dan hari mulai sore, bahkan hampir gelap, sunyi sekali kota ini, aneh. gue takut.
"teeeet....teeeet" suara klakson terdengar begitu dekat dibelakang gue.
"naik" pinta rian ke gue, dan gue langsung naik, meluk dia erat karena gue bener-bener kedinginan, dan dia malah bawa gue ke danau disebuah perumahan, padahal gue berharap dianterin pulang.
didanau itu dia ajak gue duduk, dan yang gue tahu selama duduk disana gue meluk dia erat, dia ngasih jaket dia ke gue, dan dia coba buat menghangatkan gue, dan gue cuma bisa bilang
"gue benci hujan" beberapa saat kemudian hujan pun berhenti.
"liat, ada pelangi" dia nunjuk sebuah pelangi diangkasa
"bagus banget"
"you know what? there is always a good thing behind the bad things, spoiled lady"
dan dia pun nganterin gue pulang, sesampainya didepan rumah gue pun berterima kasih dan segera masuk, tapi dia manggil gue.
"alexa"
"ya?"
"I would never turn away from you, spoiled lady"
"Vinaya?" he is not answer, just laugh out load.
"bye, My Spoiled Lady" Dia pun mencium kening gue dan pergi. Tuhan, terimakasih untuk hari, dan orang terbaik hari ini, kau selalu lebih tahu mana yang terbaik untukku dan kapan itu terjadi. :)
JUST WAIT .....
Senin, 30 Juli 2012
Alexa Story "To get something special, you must do something Spectacular"
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
oioi, salam untuk para pembaca setia gue yang hampir rata-rata adalah laba-laba, kecoa, dan kuman, lalu mana manusianya? gue ras agak ada, karena gue jarang nge-post, dan kalaupun nge-post gak penting.
so.. gue mau coba menuliskan sebuah cesung di blog ini, hope you like this.
Chapter 1.
Hujan turun lagi di kota karawang, kota yang pada dasarnya diisi oleh makhluk-makhluk super unik, dan unforgettable. Terutama cowok satu itu, badannya tinggi dan kulitnya yang hitam manis membuat dia terlihat begitu "awesome" ketika disirami hujan, ya dia terlihat "sexy" cowok itu memang sempurna, dan sekarang dia menuju ke parkiran, dan dia keluar dari parkiran, liat.....! dia bakal melewati gue, OH MY GOD! gue harap dia ngajak gue pulang bareng.
"Teeeet...Teeet" Suara klakson cowok itu terdengar, dan dia menghampiri gue.
"hai, Alexa" sapa cowok itu.
"hai juga Rian, sendirian aja nih? aduh hujan nih." sapa gue penuh harapan.
"iya nih hujan, ya udah ya gue deluan, ntar hujannya makin gede, bye alexa" jawabnya.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah siaaaaaaaaaaal, kenapa cowok itu gak ngajakin gue pulang bareng, kenapa dia gak ngebiarin gue bersama dia dalam hujan, kenapa tuhan? TIDAK!
"Teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet" tiba-tiba suara klakson mobil gue dateng, dan semuanya pun buyar tanpa harapan, bagaikan berjalan dipinggir sungai lalu terpeleset dan masuk ke dalam lumpur sungai. Okay, emang disungai ada lumpur? GUE GAK TAHU!
Kenalin, gue Alexa, cewek SMA yang funny dan sekolah di sekolah kece, gue punya banyak temen, banyak sahabat, banyak musuh dan sialnya, gue gak punya pacar! Inceran gue banyak, tapi emang dasar nasib si jomblo akut, tak ada satupun inceran yang nyangkut, dan kalian tahu apa? apa? apa? gue punya satu inceran, dan dia sempurna! (menurut gue) namanya Rian, Cowok biasa yang sekelas sama gue, cuek dan gak tahu kenapa bisa membuat gue mencintai dia dengan sangat, semua orang bilang gue dan dia gak cocok, tapi bagi gue, kita "perfect couple".
"Di Kelas"
"riaaaaaan, ini makanan buat lo, gue buat sendiri loch" okay, gue bohong, itu masakan emak gue dan gue copet lauknya.
"Makasih, tapi gue udah kenyang, bawa pulang aja"
"tapi, gue udah bawain ini ke lo, hargain dikit kek" jawab gue, kecewa.
"ya emang ada yang nyuruh lo bawain? emang gue mesen? gak kan?"
"ya udahlah lo buang aja, tapi dibelakang gue, jangan kayak gini"
"kalau gue gak mau ya gak mau, maksa banget deh, MANJA!" Jawab rian kesal, dan pergi ninggalin gue.
So, apa yang harus gue lakuin? apa yang harus gue katakan, eits.. tunggu apa ini dimata gue, ada yang basah, okay, good. gue nangis untuk kesekian kalinya gara-gara cowok kampret ini, dan air matanya gak mau berhenti, gimana dong?.
"Puk..puk.." bunyi tangan seseorang nepuk gue
"udahlah, kenapa lo nangis? masa kayak gitu aja di tangisin." Nasehat Sahabat gue, si Litha.
"ya bukan gitu, dia tuh cuek banget, masa gitu sih ke gue, kan gue temennya, dan gue suka dia, dan gue gak suka diginiin, huaaaaaaa.... mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" Rengek gue kayak anak kecil.
"oh come on man, kenapa lo jadi manja gini, mana Alexa yang tegar? yang dewasa? cepirith qaqagh" Support sahabat gue yang lain, Mona namanya.
"Gue gak tau, gue cuma ngerasa lemah aja dihadapan dia, ngerasa dia bisa ngelindungin gue, ngerasa dia bisa buat semuanya jadi sempurna, ah gue kangen bareng dia"
"sekarang gue tanya, lo beneran sayang sama dia?" Tanya litha
"Banget" jawab gue.
"bagi lo dia itu apa? dihati lo posisi dia apa?"
"everything, Special"
"so, If you want to get something special, you must do something spectacular" Pepatah litha, yang entah darimana dapatnya.
" ayo semangaaaaaaaaat, lo bisa dapetin dia"
"iya gue bisa, gue bisa.... Keep cepilith Jokut (jomblo Akut)"
To Be Continue
oioi, salam untuk para pembaca setia gue yang hampir rata-rata adalah laba-laba, kecoa, dan kuman, lalu mana manusianya? gue ras agak ada, karena gue jarang nge-post, dan kalaupun nge-post gak penting.
so.. gue mau coba menuliskan sebuah cesung di blog ini, hope you like this.
Chapter 1.
"To get something special, you must do something spectacular"
Hujan turun lagi di kota karawang, kota yang pada dasarnya diisi oleh makhluk-makhluk super unik, dan unforgettable. Terutama cowok satu itu, badannya tinggi dan kulitnya yang hitam manis membuat dia terlihat begitu "awesome" ketika disirami hujan, ya dia terlihat "sexy" cowok itu memang sempurna, dan sekarang dia menuju ke parkiran, dan dia keluar dari parkiran, liat.....! dia bakal melewati gue, OH MY GOD! gue harap dia ngajak gue pulang bareng.
"Teeeet...Teeet" Suara klakson cowok itu terdengar, dan dia menghampiri gue.
"hai, Alexa" sapa cowok itu.
"hai juga Rian, sendirian aja nih? aduh hujan nih." sapa gue penuh harapan.
"iya nih hujan, ya udah ya gue deluan, ntar hujannya makin gede, bye alexa" jawabnya.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah siaaaaaaaaaaal, kenapa cowok itu gak ngajakin gue pulang bareng, kenapa dia gak ngebiarin gue bersama dia dalam hujan, kenapa tuhan? TIDAK!
"Teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet" tiba-tiba suara klakson mobil gue dateng, dan semuanya pun buyar tanpa harapan, bagaikan berjalan dipinggir sungai lalu terpeleset dan masuk ke dalam lumpur sungai. Okay, emang disungai ada lumpur? GUE GAK TAHU!
Kenalin, gue Alexa, cewek SMA yang funny dan sekolah di sekolah kece, gue punya banyak temen, banyak sahabat, banyak musuh dan sialnya, gue gak punya pacar! Inceran gue banyak, tapi emang dasar nasib si jomblo akut, tak ada satupun inceran yang nyangkut, dan kalian tahu apa? apa? apa? gue punya satu inceran, dan dia sempurna! (menurut gue) namanya Rian, Cowok biasa yang sekelas sama gue, cuek dan gak tahu kenapa bisa membuat gue mencintai dia dengan sangat, semua orang bilang gue dan dia gak cocok, tapi bagi gue, kita "perfect couple".
"Di Kelas"
"riaaaaaan, ini makanan buat lo, gue buat sendiri loch" okay, gue bohong, itu masakan emak gue dan gue copet lauknya.
"Makasih, tapi gue udah kenyang, bawa pulang aja"
"tapi, gue udah bawain ini ke lo, hargain dikit kek" jawab gue, kecewa.
"ya emang ada yang nyuruh lo bawain? emang gue mesen? gak kan?"
"ya udahlah lo buang aja, tapi dibelakang gue, jangan kayak gini"
"kalau gue gak mau ya gak mau, maksa banget deh, MANJA!" Jawab rian kesal, dan pergi ninggalin gue.
So, apa yang harus gue lakuin? apa yang harus gue katakan, eits.. tunggu apa ini dimata gue, ada yang basah, okay, good. gue nangis untuk kesekian kalinya gara-gara cowok kampret ini, dan air matanya gak mau berhenti, gimana dong?.
"Puk..puk.." bunyi tangan seseorang nepuk gue
"udahlah, kenapa lo nangis? masa kayak gitu aja di tangisin." Nasehat Sahabat gue, si Litha.
"ya bukan gitu, dia tuh cuek banget, masa gitu sih ke gue, kan gue temennya, dan gue suka dia, dan gue gak suka diginiin, huaaaaaaa.... mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" Rengek gue kayak anak kecil.
"oh come on man, kenapa lo jadi manja gini, mana Alexa yang tegar? yang dewasa? cepirith qaqagh" Support sahabat gue yang lain, Mona namanya.
"Gue gak tau, gue cuma ngerasa lemah aja dihadapan dia, ngerasa dia bisa ngelindungin gue, ngerasa dia bisa buat semuanya jadi sempurna, ah gue kangen bareng dia"
"sekarang gue tanya, lo beneran sayang sama dia?" Tanya litha
"Banget" jawab gue.
"bagi lo dia itu apa? dihati lo posisi dia apa?"
"everything, Special"
"so, If you want to get something special, you must do something spectacular" Pepatah litha, yang entah darimana dapatnya.
" ayo semangaaaaaaaaat, lo bisa dapetin dia"
"iya gue bisa, gue bisa.... Keep cepilith Jokut (jomblo Akut)"
To Be Continue
Selasa, 03 Juli 2012
Orang baik menjadi Orang Tanpa Perasaan
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
Apa yang lo rasain ketika menyebut kalimat "Meskipun lo jahat, gue bakal tetep baik"
gue pribadi ngerasa itu omong kosong, kenapa? karena ayolah men, itu bodoh...
masa dia jahatin lo dan lo tetep baik? lebih baik diam saja dan jadi manusia tanpa perasaan jika dia hanya menyakiti perasaanmu dan bila dia menyakiti fisik, sebaiknya jadilah manusia jahat.
Mungkin, beberapa yang baca post ini bakal bilang kalau gue sesat, tapi enggak.
karena semuanya gue alamain, ketika seseorang jahat dan lo dengan bodohnya tetap baik, lo tau apa yang dia lakukan? menjahati gue lebih lagi, dan lebih lagi, dan akhirnya gue benar-benar hancur.
Dia menghancurkan gue, dan dia membuat gue hilang arah, gue si cewek pemimpi kini tak memiliki satu impian apapun, bahkan untuk esok pun gue tak mau mengkhayal ataupun berharap.
Lo tau, dia terus ngejahatin gue tanpa ampun, emang bukan fisik tapi batin, setiap hari rasanya kayak di ruang penyiksaan dan dia tahu gue terluka, dia tahu gue kesakitan, dia tahu gue HANCUR, dan DIA BIASA AJA, DIA GAK PEDULI, DIA BAHAGIA, DIA BANGGA NYAKITIN GUE!
Sejak saat itu di sebuah RO (ruang O), disaat gue melihat dia berkhianat, gue memutuskan bahwa semua omong kosong, gue hanya mainan, gue terlalu bodoh, dan dia membuat gue bersumpah akan membalas semua ini, gue akan membuat dia mengemis cinta gue, membuat dia menangis di hadapan gue karena gue tak ingin dia kembali, gue akan buat dia resah dan dilema setiap malam, gue akan hancurin dia lebih hancur dari gue.
Tapi, itu hanya emosi gue, gue gak sanggup liat dia terluka, gue gak sanggup liat dia merintih kesakitan, gue gak sanggup liat dia sedih, gue gak sanggup.
Tapi, gue juga gak bodoh untuk masuk ke lubang kepahitan yang sama, dan gue memutuskan untuk tak lagi menjadi baik kepada orang yang tak baik sama gue, dan menjalani hidup beberapa saat tanpa perasaan atau lebih tepatnya gue ingin menjadi manusia Individualisme dalam kurun waktu beberapa saat.
Dia memberikan gue pelajaran terbesar tentang bersosialisasi, tetapi dia juga sempat memberikan gue KENANGAN TERINDAH SAAT BERSAMANYA.
Apa yang lo rasain ketika menyebut kalimat "Meskipun lo jahat, gue bakal tetep baik"
gue pribadi ngerasa itu omong kosong, kenapa? karena ayolah men, itu bodoh...
masa dia jahatin lo dan lo tetep baik? lebih baik diam saja dan jadi manusia tanpa perasaan jika dia hanya menyakiti perasaanmu dan bila dia menyakiti fisik, sebaiknya jadilah manusia jahat.
Mungkin, beberapa yang baca post ini bakal bilang kalau gue sesat, tapi enggak.
karena semuanya gue alamain, ketika seseorang jahat dan lo dengan bodohnya tetap baik, lo tau apa yang dia lakukan? menjahati gue lebih lagi, dan lebih lagi, dan akhirnya gue benar-benar hancur.
Dia menghancurkan gue, dan dia membuat gue hilang arah, gue si cewek pemimpi kini tak memiliki satu impian apapun, bahkan untuk esok pun gue tak mau mengkhayal ataupun berharap.
Lo tau, dia terus ngejahatin gue tanpa ampun, emang bukan fisik tapi batin, setiap hari rasanya kayak di ruang penyiksaan dan dia tahu gue terluka, dia tahu gue kesakitan, dia tahu gue HANCUR, dan DIA BIASA AJA, DIA GAK PEDULI, DIA BAHAGIA, DIA BANGGA NYAKITIN GUE!
Sejak saat itu di sebuah RO (ruang O), disaat gue melihat dia berkhianat, gue memutuskan bahwa semua omong kosong, gue hanya mainan, gue terlalu bodoh, dan dia membuat gue bersumpah akan membalas semua ini, gue akan membuat dia mengemis cinta gue, membuat dia menangis di hadapan gue karena gue tak ingin dia kembali, gue akan buat dia resah dan dilema setiap malam, gue akan hancurin dia lebih hancur dari gue.
Tapi, itu hanya emosi gue, gue gak sanggup liat dia terluka, gue gak sanggup liat dia merintih kesakitan, gue gak sanggup liat dia sedih, gue gak sanggup.
Tapi, gue juga gak bodoh untuk masuk ke lubang kepahitan yang sama, dan gue memutuskan untuk tak lagi menjadi baik kepada orang yang tak baik sama gue, dan menjalani hidup beberapa saat tanpa perasaan atau lebih tepatnya gue ingin menjadi manusia Individualisme dalam kurun waktu beberapa saat.
Dia memberikan gue pelajaran terbesar tentang bersosialisasi, tetapi dia juga sempat memberikan gue KENANGAN TERINDAH SAAT BERSAMANYA.
Kamis, 14 Juni 2012
He Destroy Me, Mommy.
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
Hi mommy, may I cry in your hug?
mom, I'm feeling so....... bad, right now.
you know why? this is because a man, who was broke myself.
Last night, I asked him about "me and him" I asked him, has he love me from the first time we are in relationship? and he told me that he is never love me, that just about "appreciate" from beginning.
Mom, He broke me, this all things just because "appreciate" what should I do?
why the appreciate be like a Murder in a slowly way, instead.
I think this is impossible just because "appreciate" because he treats me like I'm the one who he loved, he treats me like I'm his soul mate, he treats me so special and now, that's only about "appreciate" and mom, he told me like that "word" not hurt.
Mom, he is really good at pretending not to care about me, he pretending like I'm Okay, I'm half died, does he know it?
I loose my life, I loose my soul, I loose the purpose of life, he broke my all life, he took my heart away and destroyed it, and then give it back in a state of shattered.
and he pretend not care?
Mom, everything going not normal, I'd like to go on the street but without a purpose.
He screw up my life, broke every believe about love, broke every pieces of all my faith about a kindness, you know somehow he show to me if be a good person is useless, better if be a bad person.
Mom, I need an empty space, there's I can yelled as loud as possible, I want throw away all this pain, all this burden.
so I can walk without any doubt, and without any burden of life. :)
x
Hi mommy, may I cry in your hug?
mom, I'm feeling so....... bad, right now.
you know why? this is because a man, who was broke myself.
Last night, I asked him about "me and him" I asked him, has he love me from the first time we are in relationship? and he told me that he is never love me, that just about "appreciate" from beginning.
Mom, He broke me, this all things just because "appreciate" what should I do?
why the appreciate be like a Murder in a slowly way, instead.
I think this is impossible just because "appreciate" because he treats me like I'm the one who he loved, he treats me like I'm his soul mate, he treats me so special and now, that's only about "appreciate" and mom, he told me like that "word" not hurt.
Mom, he is really good at pretending not to care about me, he pretending like I'm Okay, I'm half died, does he know it?
I loose my life, I loose my soul, I loose the purpose of life, he broke my all life, he took my heart away and destroyed it, and then give it back in a state of shattered.
and he pretend not care?
Mom, everything going not normal, I'd like to go on the street but without a purpose.
He screw up my life, broke every believe about love, broke every pieces of all my faith about a kindness, you know somehow he show to me if be a good person is useless, better if be a bad person.
Mom, I need an empty space, there's I can yelled as loud as possible, I want throw away all this pain, all this burden.
so I can walk without any doubt, and without any burden of life. :)
x
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